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Comment on Civil Rights for MST survivors by jayherron

jayherron — Mon, 28 Dec 2009 23:43:44 +0000

Michael- It is a system! Not at all a good one…but,you quit-no matter how you quit-then,the system wins! Fight the fuckers-man-fight and keep your face in thiers! Have you contacted an attorney? You need to do that-find out if you can move to an area where there IS some help…like here-as fucked up as it is,we can find help-and justice. Killing yourself is just as sorry as shooting someone else…giving up just lets the rapist be the winner-why do that? THE SYSTEM OWES YOU THE HELP-AND…IT IS LAW,man-LAW! �

Comment on Civil Rights for MST survivors by Michael Warren

Michael Warren — Mon, 28 Dec 2009 23:23:12 +0000

Hey buddy just got some bad news….My case manager informed me that they will not be allowing me to attend sexual trauma treatment here at the VA- and that I would have to deal with my problems at an Outpatient, at best. I am so disgusted with this system. I want to put a fucking bullet in my head (as putting one in theirs goes against my religious convictions). I feel so betrayed AGAIN and lied to that I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I think I am going to just go somewhere after I get my check on the 3rd and OD and get this misery overwith. I have tried everything- a FUCKING POLYGRAPH exam even- just to be dismissed, as if I don’t matter. I guess I don’t. I allowed myself to believe just for a second that the VA actually might have developed a conscience or a soul-who was I kidding. No one listens anymore and even fewer believe the truth or know it when they hear it. My heart has broken for the last time.

Comment on Civil Rights for MST survivors by jayherron

jayherron — Wed, 23 Dec 2009 17:15:26 +0000

Michael, I have emailed you personally this morning and also will try to telephone you later in the day-you are 4 hours difference-so bare with me. For your privacy-I edited your comment this morning-I fixed your name so it is just your first name in view-and fixed your telephone number,I kept a copy for myself. I am hopeful wwe see you to a success in your claim-and help try to guide you through living with MST related PTSD. Hang in there-you are a special person! Peace

Comment on Civil Rights for MST survivors by Michael W.

Michael W. — Wed, 23 Dec 2009 03:20:03 +0000

My name is Michael W. I am 42 years old and I am currently staying at the White City VA in Oregon in the Homeless Program (sigh….these names (homeless program)…killers on the male ego as if the traumas weren’t enough…) My phone number is 541-826-???? room extension is 5485. I am in the Computer room a lot doing “Incentive Therapy” helping out people when I am not here. I currently attend a twice a week “Depression” class here. They are talking about a Prolonged Exposure class for me- this is where they torture me for about 6 weeks listening to myself talk about the ordeal over and over on audio tapes….except….they want me to talk about the 2nd rape as it occurred in LA County Jail- and not the controlling trauma- the one that happened in the MEPS Center in Seattle- as I was out-processing…Thats the one that left me trying to kill myself when I reported it and no one would help me in 1988. I am scared that they will document and use the later rape to wash their hands by saying my “symptoms” reflect that issue and etc etc…. I have a polygraph exam I took regarding my entire screwed up military career…. I would like to send you a copy- feel free to do whatever you like with it….I am only 12 months into my claim (no decisions yet) and I feel I need help cause I really don’t trust anyone and my information is limited here… your help is appreciated. Sincerely, Michael Warren

Comment on Civil Rights for MST survivors by jayherron

jayherron — Tue, 22 Dec 2009 03:34:30 +0000

You are unique-you are asking for help! The LAW says you have a RIGHT to indefinant treatment…that is THE LAW! I wish I knew your location-I could help you find help better,but…you have a legal RIGHT to treatment for MST,and pill seeker or not-you have rights! � My advice at this point is to go to the VA nearest you and go to the ‘patients advocates’ office-look whomever in the eye and tell them WITH CONFIDENCE you are a MST survivor and that you know that the law says you have a right to treatment and are seeking treatment NOW! � Find yourself a notebook-keep a record of what happened then,good or bad! Also-write your incident down too,what happened in military service-the rape. � I promise to try to find you help-but we have a HUGE hurdle in front of us-where are you? I promise-you contact me through this and I will respond! I will help you-you need to help me do that!

Comment on Civil Rights for MST survivors by Michael W.

Michael W. — Mon, 21 Dec 2009 20:21:54 +0000

I currently took a polygraph exam for the military sexual trauma i suffered in the 1980s…I asked for help at the time it occurred only to be told to deal with it after I got out of the military. I tried to kill myself within 24 hours (I didnt really know how back then- took like 8 hits of acid swallowed a bottle of aspirin ate a bag of marijuana tried to buy drugs on the street to kill me lol- I hadnt done drugs I was on a nuclear sub with high clearance and stable background prior….) I ended up living on the street for years and got raped (even worse) in Los Angeles County jail….I recently asked for help in 2008 by a screener named Colleen Corson at the White City VA only to be insulted and told, “didnt you learn how to fight in the military?” she not only would not allow me to be a patient in the Domicilliary here but wouldnt even give me bus tokens to get to the mission. I had to spend 350 dollars to be polygraphed over all the things I claimed happened to me- I passed- and I volunteered to be tortured with truth drugs and more polygraphs just so that the truth would come out. Ive never had a stable job or relationship since it happened. I am barely off the streets but no one here will read my polygraph ( I turned a copy into the VA Claim center which they at least accepted) They don’t want to treat me for the military sexual trauma which started this storm of suffering…no one will help me and I get called in my file is a “pill-seeker” My personnel file has stuff taken out, missing and rewritten etc- this forced me to take a polygraph (asking the military to investigate/hand over evidence to be used against them lol) I am still suicidal- with scars and multiple attempts. I haven’t been denied on my claim….yet….but they are taking forever and cheating me every step of the way at the VA…I need help and don’t trust anyone here and have no one that will read (staff wise at VA) my polygraph. I am lost alone- and as a male I feel unique in a way that I don’t want to feel alone in. Please advise….

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Comment on looking into the face of God by Mike E

Mike E — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 11:42:19 +0000

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